unanswered

what i know is not how i feel. Hoe can i describe this how can i know which is wrong and which is right. how can i not feel two faced feeling diffrent from whawt i know is wrong. How can i be ok anf know that i am loved and not alone. How can i be ok when people are always critizing? They say this place is not my hom and im only passing thorigu, but if eel like i am spending an enternity, for just passing through. I need somthing stable or sturdy to know that im alright i can get through these things. BUt i look around and i see no one to help me. i know you say count on God yet that fustrates me because i feel alone and that he can't even help. Even though i know he can. Could there be a demon inside of me? what kind of person rebels against the help of God? so many unanswered questions and wanting them to be solved.