Ok I only have two more month of being 19! Only two more months. I was hoping to do something amazing before i reached my 20th birthday. Like make an amazing film or travel to Africa. Maybe just have an Adventure of my life, or so something meaningful that would help jump start my career. i guess Starting college at !7 and having my own apartment and being able to pay my bills is an acomplishment but I want something more. I guess I can't accomplish anything if I don't know what I want yet. Ok so lately in my life if yo u want to know I found who i thought was the perfect guy name Jake, he turned out to be a totaly dirt bag like all guys. I am learning not to Expect much but give everything, those are some powerful words. I need to get those pattened like the marlin manrro saying's. I know your saying don't give what you don't recive. It should be equal, but this world is made not fair and that is what God has decided it to be. If I give Everything i can never get sad for failing because i didn't give it my all. Also if everyone thought im only going to give if in know i am going to get, or Im going to give but i expect things back, you are going to live unhappy and miss out on so much that could open so many doors. Right now i am righting a blog because i Know i enjoy writting but im not sure what about writting i know fer sure it isn't the spelling and grammer part though! But maybe just being able to express my self. I love feeling my fingers flowing effortlsly anlong the keyboard or my pencial gliding across a table. Just getting your thoughts how also helps you discover yourself more. I seem to like to ask questions and to have my ideas run in CIrcles. I like to ask question that seem to have many anwers. I lvve trying to figure out difficult things. I guees now would be a time to reflect on the postive things in my life.
ok i have alot of opertunites and God has never left me. I mean i have connected with 2 churches. I have had contless internships. I only fear what my degree may mean to other companies. is it a joke? i mean not many teachers here are elite. If you know what I mean. I should be typing up my 5 page essay that is due on monday in stead of this blog. That woudl add to my grade!
