A jumble of emotions

I wish my life was a song. have they best parts repeat it self just like a chorus. I know everything is supossed to be for a reason and im trying hard to fight the negtivity and find the postive, but it is hard. MAybe if my boss wasn't such a jerk! i feel disconnected from everyone. I get along with everyone but i don't feel a connection. Yes this is jsut a jumble of emotions that mean nothing lol. But i don't think i am ment for love or anything else, but because i can't love my self. I had a ephiney the other day. I realized my last relationship did last because, well i can't comprehend how some one can care for me that much. I loe the way it feels but i don't feel good enough. Maybe that is why i have been disconnected laltely God just wants me to work on myself. I'm not sure but i feel like there is a reason I am all alone right now. HE just wants me to be alone and show how much he loves me and how wonderful i really am.  Im trying to take to it but its hard. I think that song is for me right now form God. Rob Thomas - Hard on you. I'm a mess but its weird how no one can tell. welll i guess i must do my homework so untill next time peace.